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| Monday, May 12th, 2008 | | 11:30 pm |
fierce compassion Air Water Fire Earth Disasters around the globe whoa. Really- the 4 elements Earthquake China Tornadoes Mid south east USA Floods in Myamar Fires in Florida What a day- distaters galore! All pointing to a crisis of spirit- and anger The only reaction possible for aTantrik is Compassion- but , as the Dalai Lama said: "there is fierce compassion" ut oh- and then he said "even if you make war, do so with compassion" At such times I pray to Tara- Im a Pagan & Goddess worshipper first- embracing Shakti Tantrika- so a Goddess suits me- One can argue dogma and origins- but I know this- Tara existed thousands of years before Buddha....but maybe not THE Buddha... And so Tara is called upon- to ease the pain, to aid those who suffer to alleviate suffering- Om Tara! But there is 'fierce compassion' and there is a wrathful form of Tara- Ture soha! May she roll down from the rainy skys and cosmically lay the collected Karm of the Junta in Burma at their feet- creating a yawning hole- may justice be done- Ture soha! And may many be saved, healed, comforted, empowered, freed! http://www.horusmaat.com/tarahakra.html | | Saturday, May 10th, 2008 | | 1:08 am |
Dionysus = Apollo Yesterday I saw the Roman exhibit at the museum and was captivated by one statue: a very drunk chunky Silenus supporting a more lovely Dionysus- makes mythic sense Then I read the info- it actually used to be a statue of Apollo and a later artist had taken the re-worked apollo-turned-into Dionysus and slapped hum together with the Silenus- tho youd never know it In fact, the two are simply flip sides of the same....but the Tantriks always side with Dionysus Shiva is the intoxicator, all bhang & kusa and intoxicants are his...and Shiva and Dionsus (a great book btw!) are really One The religionists and logic philosophers fol;low the solar Apollo- yet the real mystic mysteries and deep Id/Unconscious work is done through the doors of Ecstasy, Art, Vision and hilarity-madness! The moon becomes the sun and the sun becomes the moon Dionysus becomes Apollo who becomes Dionysus Between logic and reason and the madness and ecstasy of bliss...there is our path I also realized this: Apollo granted stability to civilization, the seasons became ordered by the sun, the crops, the tribes... Dionysus and Bacchus always were worshipped in wild places- with wild animals- always with satyrs and manaeds on the move, in packs, dancing & hunting & gathering- the ancient gnosis of Lunar calendar and hunting/gathering cultures... Both are woven in our DNA- but the wild side is Our Shambala, our Yantra | | Thursday, May 8th, 2008 | | 11:11 pm |
Will a Will Will It is who we are expressed in life path True Will, Thelema. Svecchacchra The doing of one's Will- becoming the Star envisioned by self knowing Self W+I+L+L= 76- shemhamporash- the sacred name of GOD yet Will has another meaning It is the daily hourly moment-by-moment realization of one's own DEATH not as an abstract but as a reality, a presence, an entity Seeking Will is seeking one's true Guardian Spirit Yet A Will reminds us of the document that ritually anounces: IM DEAD This can be seen, it seems in my visionary wildness, as a Dark Angel And I dont have to look far- the Mayan/Aztecs took the Death God & made him a Saint Sante Muerte Just like those wacky Xians took the Daimon HGA and made it the guardian Angel One angel always sits on my right sholder but it is the Vidya of my imminant demise that keeps me Honest Ask yourself (as I was once asked) "Do you know what you will be doing as you die?" When I get weirrd, whiney, bitchy- I think- hey- look! There is your extinction! Puts everything into perspective doesnt it? One thing about the Birth & Death, Alpha et Omega- Both are swell Just be prepared. | | Wednesday, May 7th, 2008 | | 12:28 am |
That which is above is like that which is below THE RISING AND DESCENDING I feel everything rising....and descending Heaven- -Earth I in the center a vast magnetic swirl with hollow pole The mist rises....the kundulini energy waves rise up...all of creation rising Thus forming the ideal of ascent...heaven dissolvind, freeing- solve All about us descends...rains, snows, hail....energies from stars, sun and intersteller bodies Thus forming the idea of descent, falling, soldifying- coagula Hel was a great Goddess, the Great Primal dark Mother Goddess of the Underworld A reflection of Matter and the Other Side When things die, they descend into the Other world Art that has been destroyed Thoughts, concepts, governments, traditions long gone- all gone They too have decended into the arms of Hel (or Kali Ma)- the Other world of dissolution When they are born, created, manifested, envisioned they arise Like a bud, like a sprout, like Persephone freed from Hades Into the arms of Sky Father All things arise, all descend- they interweve All manner of interestings are so manifested Taoists calld them the 10000 things | | Tuesday, May 6th, 2008 | | 12:24 am |
One ONE LOVE ONE THOUGHT ONE MIND ONE HEART ONE TRUTH ONE WORD ONE JOY ONE WORK ONE DUTY ONE BELIEF ONE PRAYER ONE MANTRA ONE CHANT ONE BLISS ONE TREE ONE MOUNTAIN ONE RIVER ONE OCEAN ONE ANCESTOR ONE DNA ONE MOLOCULE ONE ATOM ONE PARTICLE ONE WAVE ONE PULSE ONE MATTER ONE ANTIMATTER ONE STAR ONE MOON ONE FIRE ONE UNIVERSE ONE GALAXY ONE COSMOS ONE PARTICLE ONE VOID ONE NOTHING ONE BLACK HOLE ONE SILENCE ONE SONG ONE FEAST ONE VIBRATION ONE RAY ONE COLOR ONE TOUCH ONE BREATH ONE DREAM ONE BIRTH ONE DEATH ONE ETERNITY ONE IDEA ONE FANTASY ONE STORY ONE SPELL ONE SECRET ONE G_D ONE RITUAL ONE MEDITATION ONE VISION ONE HOPE ONE CELL ONE LIFE ONE GOAL ONE FUTURE ONE MEMORY ONE AWARENESS ONE MYTH ONE CONSCIOUSNESS ONE ASANA ONE SADHANA ONE PATH ONE TIME ONE PLACE ONE THRONE ONE LAW ONE PROPHECY ONE SYSTEM ONE HAPPINESS ONE BALANCE ONE DANCE ONE PLAY ONE GAME ONE LEAP ONE FLIGHT ONE SLEEP ONE TRANCE ONE POEM ONE SCRIPTURE ONE MAGICK ONE ART ONE KNOWLEDGE ONE WILL ONE ACTION ONE SWORD ONE SPEAR ONE GRAIL ONE SHIELD ONE EGG ONE MIRROR ONE CRYSTAL ONE TAO ONE THEOS ONE IHVH ONE CHRISTOS ONE ALLAH ONE BUDDHA ONE ATEN ONE WORLD N’ATON! MAY THE ONE GOD SPEAK TRUTH & JUSTICE NOW . 131/ 5/5/08 11* | | Friday, May 2nd, 2008 | | 7:41 pm |
Pruning the Trident Tree of Life Amidst my alternating erupting and depressing and relaxing current Tsunami, I see something It keeps appearing- or do I keep noticing it? Hard to say, that one. Tridents appear everywhere- they thrust as seedlings, sprouting trees and plants, the sharp tongs of an iris or a blood grass The buds, flowering spikes and new shoots- tridents all A million bits of information about the trident, one of the oldest and most primal symbols, drift about my trident that IS the Tree of Life in so many cultures, from Hindu to Norse... In Shiva's hands, the trident pierces the Three Worlds (states of Being), liberates the Three Worlds, activates the Three Chakras, Unites the Three Gunas, (and the 3 chakras...) And symbolize the fecund yoni of Tripura.... Tri murti Shiva! Lord of the 3 worlds! And it is the prong of the Thunderbolt held by Rudra, Bhairava as well as Zeus, Jupiter and so many others.... Today was different.....a bit less hyper but still a ton of serious issues to deal with....and then I meditated All the ripples- attachements- dissolved and broke apart and disappeared leaving a glowing orb in the center The Alpha state of being- calm And then I began from this centered place to look at 'ME' and do some psychic pruning this is the season to do light pruning- Ive been in the garden working every day almost Clipping, trimming, pruning A conscious Magikian or Tantrik is constantly pruning. Old relationships long past expiration- snip A stupid habit- clip A bad attitude- chop I realized today that Pruning the TREE of Self is really what 'the work' (play?) is all about But- too much self-monitoring (cutting) and we slip into OCD neurosis- or worse Not enough and we become lazy fat hippies or pudgy goths- ick! The trident is the plant/tree of life The trident is the tool of planting/cultivating The Garden rules! | | Wednesday, April 30th, 2008 | | 11:26 pm |
wyrd Again the Wheel, which I thought was on an upswing, instead has hit a black-pothole and lost a rim Bad luck-Karma-Wyrd-Fate... The web that has three faces: All is Fate/God- I have no say- Destiny is already written or Predestination is a lie to enslave- True Will breaks all chains; one can do what he or she WILLS to do or Fate? Free Will? Both are illusions- one can only SURF It is important to fervently believe each of these at some point in order to really 'get' the Web of Wyrd / Law of Karma / Flow of Luck Once in awhile I can play a little cat's cradle, but for the most part, not drowning is an accomplishment... | | Monday, April 28th, 2008 | | 10:06 pm |
The HML Dreams April 26 was the anniversary of the HML- http://www.horusmaat.comI was part of the founding of this order and decided to do the simple basic Rite of this Order http://www.horusmaat.com/basic_rite.htmat midnight on that day in order to tap into the egregore, strengthen it and revive it- I urged fellow HMLers to think about joining me Rite done in in a field on a farm in the woods under a fully starry sky of amazing clarity- I ended up focusing on the North Star without realizing it.... Omen: See attached rune- it is one of two possible runes it seems.... Dream one (that night) I am being attached by evil spirits One posesses my wife and I summon all my sorcery and banished her I used the Thelemic Cross -sort of- (shouting Abrahadabra, Ipsos, Thenema, Agape. N'ATON ) WOSH! Huge influx of power and I awoke- very double current - finger- in socket Dream 2- next night: Im wandering a very D&D type town, but bodern- coblestones, lots of gardens and ornate stone shops and such I keep meeting HMLers- adepts and mystics of all types Our crowd swells as we search the town for something- we are looking fort an astral meeting place- the growd gets quite big- about 200 (!) and we are a wild and ornate bunch, robes and masks and jewelry- intoxicated and reveling, studious and arguing- what a group! Finally we settled on a magickal Beer Garden- a lovely open-air dining area, all stone walls and little nook shops surrounding a lovely courtyard- paved stones- with tons of blooming, beautiful long hanging plants- candles on the table, music and delicious food asmells in the air, full stars above- milky way! A place to feast & rejoice indeed! I offer this as an informal hang out for the lodge members on the dreamtime- the beer is free, the people are friendly and dinner is always on... Lux Fiat HML! 93/696 | | 9:58 pm |
Free Time Shiva is Maha Kala Shakti is Maha Kali Both mean 'great" followed by 'TIME' And now that I am on vacation- of sorts (from working in any event) My TIME is my own and I realize- holy shit! This is the only thing that matters!!! Having MY TIME to My SELF- to do with as I will- not another And I saw my life as a series of swells of free time followed by the slavery flows of work- and it is clear when one is left to oneself, the original path of true will manifests I have a chance to- literally -'get my bearings' Time theft is insidious and endless- Shiva & Shaki can give or take TIME- as ye wish I vote for FREE TIME every time | | 9:40 pm |
The fire Om I have a fire in my belly- everyone does This is the Fire that stokes the engine ME, burning calories, supplying every atom of my body what it needs- What I give the fire determinines how clean the burn is It manifests Water Vapor Ashes - minerals and such of Earth Gases into the air and the fire itself burns with the plasma spark The fuel I give it determines the health, longevity and energy of the being as a whole- Food, drink, smokes & radiations are consumed daily Also tossed into the Fire called Dhuni by Tantriks Are what we we choose to manifest daily The Emotions we take & receive (wather) The Physical exercise and work/play we do (earth) the Thoughts we manifest and obsess over (air) And the flame of Moving Chi in meaningful patterns - circulating the fire And in the end realize that water extinguishes, earth smothers, lack of O2 starves and no heat/spark means no fire Darkness-light-darkness light? | | 9:01 pm |
MoveON with yourself Hey, that annoying little voice said-
Move ON
with your work
Move OUT
of your self-imposed saddness
Move OVER
And let the Slef move
Move OUTSIDE
The little self-imposed boxes you inhabit
Move ONWARD
and get to it- and quit yer bellyaching! | | Thursday, April 24th, 2008 | | 11:20 pm |
Then suddenly, I hear a symphony "Then suddenly, I hear a symphony" -The Supremes I had a dream the other night I was playing a marimba and/or some other sci-fi instrument pounding away & playing I was on a vast plain- thousands of others were scattered about the landscape all playing away or not- percussion mostly- some tonals We were all seperate, yet we were all conmmunicating and interweaving music I see it now- we always see Nataraj- Dancing Shiva We never ask: WHAT is he dancing to? I know It is this: Each of us is creating what the ancient Australians call a Songline We are creating the universe as we live- everything we do is part of the song As a group we are creating a vast symphony The Melody supplied by nature, played on the viola of our resonating DNA Each of us is one tune- together we are music aka Maya- So Doing Ones Will is the crafting of Ones Unique Songline- The winging of the way is also perceived as the vibrating of the Bija tone...the special rhythm...the song of the heartstring Think about this: Every Hindu god/dess has a TONE or VIBRATION (bija) Every Voodoo Loa has a special RHYTHM Every Shinto Kami has a tone Every Kwakiutl Spirit has a special whistle..... Every man and every woman is a star and every star has a signature song Samasara is alive with the sound of.... >>> (And there are Shiva & Shakti as Fred Astaire & Ginger Rogers Waltizing across the stars as the world dissolves...)  | | Monday, April 21st, 2008 | | 12:38 pm |
uplift Om In the darkest moments I dwell on pain & suffering and the entropy of hopelessness I meditate & all drops away- the stormy sea is not going to swamp me I ride the waves- the quieter my head, the deeper my hull the more balence I have but the spirit leaves me- empty and full of sadness and a lassitude that can not be motivated or ignored all friendship ends, all caring dissolves, all goals are seen as dust, gone in the winds of time in this stillness I become a dark flower And then, a small bird appears Alights on my yard, looks at me amidst the grass wet with raindrops and flies up after eating a small seed The wings take me up, they free me from the dark woven cocoon- just for a second a hole is pecked in the black egg up a bit of light is experienced the wings....they are primal Wings touch something- it echoes through me being muscles I no longer have strain to take me skyward a primal species echo....remembers the sky Angel, spirit, bird, being- wings .... and something is freed and the day is different lighter | | Saturday, April 19th, 2008 | | 10:21 pm |
a one and a two and a three... There are three body centers or wheels of force in my tantrika three gunas, three elements of alchjemy, three fundamantal states of Tao The head, the heart, the loins&base Moon....Sun.....Fire Also, it occurs to me the three Shaktis (Knowledge, Will & Action) And, as I see now, the three states of doing the Work (or Play...) In-The-Moment / Now meditation- moment by moment, drip by drip, the on-going work of Be HereNow- that is the work of the Fire (Prakriti) The work of the Heart, the Sun: The daily meditation, ritual work, sadhana- oiften in a cycle of a Yearly working Quarters of the Sun, Wheel of the Solar Year & rites of same (Apollonian) Then there is the dream work, the deep work, the Lunar work of hidden cycles, tides and gradual shifts Works of intoxication, ecstasy, art and the inner eye (Dionysian) Beyond and about these all- uniting them Is the work of lifetime cycles, aeons, eternities- nothing doing nothing wheels within wheels Thus as a Tnatrik I must be in the moment Meditate daily Honor the gods/goddesses/times as the times in the light & seasons dictate Flow with the lunar tides and the inner intuitive spontaneously work in the darkness Knowing nothing makes any real difference (yet it all does) and thus letting go of any overmonitoring... a highwire act indeed- and the fool laughs | | Friday, April 18th, 2008 | | 8:24 pm |
Panchatattva The arising of consciousness or awareness Is like a fish leaping from maya then sinking back in int the whirling waters of samsara Like a flame that bursts from a lightening strike only to die down as embers and ashes Like a hurricane thatarises from the flows of air slamming into Gaia and then whisping away in sprinkles and breezes Like The seed that bursts into life and is fertile, ofers fruit expands unto a limit and dies Rotting to become of the earth again until a new seed sprouts And all in all this experience is very like that of a new star forming from spinning, illuminated burning gasses, particles and All Else Igniting like a flare and mellowing as a white to yellow to red star Finally collapsing into a black hole From which the star-birth originated It is the open eye, the breath, the laugh And it keeps us sane | | Tuesday, April 15th, 2008 | | 11:39 pm |
I Tube dearmoring I am a set of armor empty shell crafted of millions of neuro-youTube clips called a life Tape loop past experiences...or experiences I THINK I had...might...may...have had This is my life It is scarred, damaged, scraped and chunks are missing But I bow before the neon-electric shimmering armor that Is and IS NOT 'I' I am a tree- naked and silent and unconscious But even I am aware that the armor which thinks that it is is not it is empty I contemplate what animates it | | Monday, April 14th, 2008 | | 8:27 pm |
shewstone Here is one: Just looking through something changes your reality completely if done with will Think- rose colored glasses Sacred stones wtih holes are shew stones- used to see the past, present, future and...? Crystals open portals Even cupping your hands opens up Shambala In many cultures gods are shown with what looks like a MASK or GOGGLES or GLASSES What are they seeing- does extended vision make one a god? Was Superman a god because of X ray vision? Think about it- TRUE x-ray- seeing ino anything- the heart of an atom- quarks....shazam! Seeing is not looking. | | 7:32 pm |
From Seeds of Compassion- HH Dalai Lama Event He is the best- as one friend said 'Shambala follows him everywhere" Watch the event we saw - it blew our minds 55000 people all invoking compassion- in the USA! Shanti from Seattle Link: http://www.king5.com/video/index.html?nvid=235490 | | Friday, April 11th, 2008 | | 8:28 pm |
ahhh Om Shitty week, month, day Fried & depressed & mentally curled up like a pill bug But the Dalai Lama has arrived in town. Why does this change everything? I wont see him this time- I am at home retreating Yet, I pop open a window on the computer and watch his addresses- simple, as usual to the heart like an arrow of compassion wake up! Cultivate compassion you dolt! (Im paraphrasing here...) Being compassionate benefits you and others- so get on it (you twit!) Do everything, even war, with compassion so- that's it (see it all if you like: http://www.seedsofcompassion.org/event/broadcast_info.aspWell! An hour in my garden an hour watching HH the DL What has changed? Everything & nothing. In the sun, out of the shadow- The point: As a Tantrik my religion (ha!) is neurochemicals Emotional responses & sensory stimulation are the climate controls of the calliope that is my existance- the controls are in my hands If everything experienced is a self-created schema, then a change of environment/feelings = a shift in neuron transmitters = a shift in perception = a change in reality; magick! the petty angers and envies and cruelties that scamper about in the pits of my being are let out because I LIKE them...to indulge in them......but it is in the end masochistic and self defeating Anger, hate, depression, arrogance and all the other little beasties in Pandora's box all are there because I allow I have the key to the box (whenre did I put that fucker...?) Let's see if I can can figure out how to use it in my few moments of clarity before I die! May everyone who reads this receive kindness and love TODAY Including me and, of course, The Dalai Lama! (blessings) Om tare tuttare ture soha | | Thursday, April 10th, 2008 | | 11:54 pm |
Luney Nightstalker Shiva is almost always shown at night especially as the luminous hermit god When he is shown during the say it is with Shakti (Parvati) on Kailasha He is on the Mountain with the Sun goddess- makes sense- but in general he is, like the moon, nocturnal He is the luminous White Bull, most ancient of totems The great curving horns of the moon Have become the small crescent he wears in his hair And are reflected in the curved tines of the trident... He is the Shield with the horned Moon The Seducer of Europa, the Minotaur, the Bull-headed lord of visions, dreams and exstasy- he is the Twilight God The blazing light of Ma- SOL is reflected and focdused through the crystal lense of the MOON Thus opening the gate, the 3rd eye, the mind   |
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